(via MOST NOTED POSTS)
I don’t even want to go to WYD anymore. Whole thing pisses me off. I’d rather stay home and hone the leadership skills required of me, since I’m falling behind the others anyway. Shame I can’t undo the decision.
“I cried alone every night. It felt like every day that past here stole another piece of my real life away. After I cried, I’d go and fight as hard as I could. My only thought was of winning, moving forward, and getting stronger. But then I saw someone napping in the shade at the plaza. It made me so mad. I told him to stop wasting his time. And he replied that it was Aincrad’s best season and its best weather setting, too. So entering a dungeon would be a waste. Then I tried lying down as well and I slept like a baby. When I awoke it was evening and he looked a bit annoyed. But as we partied up together…Even in this world he was really living. He wasn’t losing a day in the real world. He was gaining a day here. The one who taught me that was Kirito-kun. When I began thinking of him as I fell asleep, I stopped having nightmares. I began to look forward to seeing him. For the first time since I arrived here…I was happy. To me, Kirito-kun is the meaning of my two years here, and proof that I’m alive. The reason I tried the NerveGear that day was so that I could meet him.”
Forever making a fool of myself. You’d think it’d end at some point
in the end, paramore would be the one to save my life. full stop.